What does it mean to "Launch" Levi?

After the last post of "Chapter 1, maybe..." I began feeling an uncomfortable, familiar feeling that has stopped me from writing this story in the past. Fear. Fear of sharing my sacred story and exposing myself to the opinions of others. Ego. What will people think?

I am feeling compelled to share, though. That is clear. So I started asking some questions. 

Like....What am I doing? Why am I posting raw writing like this, fresh after writing it? Does this feel good or bad? What does it mean to "launch" Levi? 

These are really important questions. I am unfolding my map and figuring out where I am going. Where am I aiming my ship? 

I came to greater clarity this morning.

Launching Levi is about love. I want to "launch" the miracle that Levi was; the gifts he brought into my life; the transformation that came from being his mother. By sharing the cornucopia of blessings his short life brought, without skipping over the pain and grittiness, another snapshot of life and humanity will exist in the world.  

It's also about reminding us all again (myself included) that it is in our hardest times that the greatest gifts come. It is when we crack that the light gets in. 

For me, its now or never. I can't carry this desire to write the book any longer without doing it. And it motivates me to share bits and pieces along the way. To feel your energy coming back and to remember that there are real people out there that I am telling my story to. So, onward I go. I continue to write, and I will continue to post when it feels right.

Thanks for being on the journey with me.